Taylor Swift.

As per usual, when Taylor's new album dropped last week,

I had to have it. I've been a fan since her first album

and no matter how much I giggle at jokes people make about

how many boyfriends she's had - I still love her.

While driving home tonight, listening to "Red", something

popped into my head. Usually, when Taylor's

album comes out, there's always this "oh my gosh, Taylor

knows my life right now!" moment. And this time,

it hasn't happened.

And I love that.

There's no angsty Caitlin, trying to figure out why

he hasn't called or texted. There's no hardcore "I need break up"

music blaring. 

Yes, I would love a relationship - and it's been hard

being single for as long as it's been..

but I'm not sitting around, waiting for something

to appear. For someone to appear.

But my mom said something that resonated with

me this past weekend - she said that there's a reason I'm single

right now, right where I'm at. 

If I had a boyfriend, I wouldn't be focused on school

like I am. Or working three jobs (two in

the field I actually want to be in!)

I'd be distracted.

I told my friend Hannah what mom had said,

and she agreed. She said that I always put everything into

the things I'm passionate about - and I wouldn't

go around picking anyone, because

I wouldn't be passionate about them! Which

is 100% true.

I don't like to half-ass anything. And I don't

want to be in a relationship when it's

not right - that's just not me.

I don't like to pretend.

So, right now - I'm going to just listen to my

Taylor Swift cd - and enjoy it.

Enjoy the ups and downs - and listen to someone

elses heartbreak for a while. Because I need

a break - this year, it's all about me!

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